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ENGAGEMENT!!

I just teared up over a new addition to my family. Her name is Alexandria (I don't remember her middle name) Hisey. lol. My brother Lucas Walsh asked her to marry him on February 22, 2011. I'm so happy to say I was involved in the way he asked her. It was so cute how Lucas asked me to be involved. The whole thing was his idea. He asked me to ask him and Alex to make a video of them discussing what love means to them and what their love is like. I of course did not turn this oportunity down. He came up with the video idea because Alex's best friend Brittany Barnes told Lucas that Alex really wanted the engagement to be recorded. So with that knowledge he developed this great plan. I immediately asked my brother for details and proceeded in doing as he asked. I posted a video on Alex's wall asking her if she and Lucas would mind helping me out with a project I had for Psychology. I asked her if they would be willing to make a video for me in which they would answer these questions: "Questions:
1What does a Godly relationship with the opposite sex mean to you?
2. What is the difference between love for a bf/gf and love for God?
3. Describe what a healthy relationship with a bf/gf is to you.
...and any other insight you have along the lines of relationship and love.
Thank you so much!!!! This will help me out GREATLY! :) "

Alex completely took the bait and was willing to "help" me with my "project" haha. At the end of the video my brother proposed to her. They were at my favorite park near their college (Shakespearean park in Montegomery, AL). Even though I wasn't supposed to tell anyone about this plan I completely told my friends here at LU. I was just too stinkin excited to hold it in. Almost everytime I got a call from Lucas I would answer saying "Are you engaged yet?!" haha. Especially when he called on Valentine's Day. He probably thought I was a nut for answering like that. hahaha. I'm so happy for him and my now sister. I love them both dearly! Contrats Lucas and Alex!!

To my future sister-in-love:  

British Thinking

I dare write this in my blog. I wish . . . I desire a Mr. Darcy in my life. So greatly I am appealed to his character’s traits and civil behavior. British literature is not easy to comprehend in the likelihood of one like myself. I have been brought up in a culture that has laziness and selfishness in its popular terminology. It burns me to think of such things. My own characteristics are not of the attractive fancy. I imagine that dating will not be a part of my life for some time. Maturity and spirituality are both areas I need to grow in; as well as education.  

Broken-Hearted or Just Broken

I broke his heart

I ripped it into pieces

I tore out his love for me

and replaced it with hatred

Does he still love me or has he developed a taste of resentment?

I fell to my knees b/c my feet were soaked in tears

I felt my hands shaking b/c my nerves were actin crazy

Does he remember our love or does he regret it?

I hurt myself emotionally

I made the pain worse with jealousy

Does this memory of us matter or is just a closed chapter locked away forever?

I meant love when I spoke it

I meant love when I felt it

I meant love when I kissed him

I meant love to never be broken

I'm saddened by my own decisions

An easy one was not meant to be made

He told me he felt cheated

He told me he felt betrayed

So badly I would have loved to say to him that I didn't want to break it off

but I didn't want to make a commitment 

the harder I fell the harder it would have been to get over

Distance would become an issue that I was not willing to take

Break it off early and things would not be as bad

Break it off later the heart ache would continue to last

But not being honest would make the pain a rock that would seem impossible to move

Rocks are hard like the beat of my heart when I wrote to him

Broken-hearted or just broken?

My love is always with him . . . and our memories are just memories

Call it love or call it a mistake

Broken-hearted or just broken?

Fatherless yet never Fatherless

One of my friends here is so loving and kind towards his dad in prison. I would give anything to have a dad that I could love like that. Growing up with just a mom was not terrible but I would not recommend single women to adopt. Children need a father to grow socially and spiritually in a healthy way. Its by the grace of God that I am the way I am today. I still would have preferred to grow up having an earthly father. But I am thankful I have my heavenly Father my Lord and Savior.  I've never shared these feelings with anyone but I have no reason to keep it to myself. Since Thanksgiving is coming up soon, I would like to thank God for giving me such a loving mother who would probably die for all of her children. She's been nothing but a blessing to us and no amount of thanksgiving can express the gratitude I have for her. 

Thanksgiving and Praise

Love is the only measurement I have for you

Love is the only way I can express my gratitude

Love is the only way to reach my goal in life

Love is the only measurement I have that amounts to my feelings for you

Keep me close and never let go

Keep me warm and I will stay

Keep me here and never let die

Keep me safe and I will pray

Thanksgiving and Praise I give to thee

My Lord, my Savior, You are the wind to my mill

My Lord, my Savior, You are my guide of this tour called life

Thanksgiving and Praise I shout to thee

God you are my Father in Heaven and on earth

I love You more than water in a drought,

more than food for the hungry, words cannot express the love that is You

You are the air I need to breathe and the light I need to see

I just wrote this poem. I was inspired to write this blog by a good friend of my roommate. I pray that your relationship with your dad continues to grow and that you would both be blessings to each other. God has truly worked in your lives. I also pray that your brother would see the good in both you and your dad. I think its great that you're dad desires to share Christ and that you have the tools by which he can learn to do so. 

Thanks everyone for reading this! I love you! and remember . . .

Jesus loves you more!!